YOUR NEXT BIRTHDAY in RETROGRADE
The hollow side of feeling will sound like a thousand full things. It’s not the silence that gets so creepy but the sound reminding you of what you don’t know & still do. Like memory, what you don’t know will always be there waiting for you to find it beneath some sorrow or some truth. And that is how tomorrow will get to tomorrow – by some routine of truth or otherwise.
GETTING OVER IT in the EIGHTH HOUSE
Suddenly after a slow gesture of days, all that silence will add up to a healing and you will realize you have only been waiting for the solace of a good nothing & you will wish nothing back on everything and everyone else. What was extending & was so glacial was not the incident but the remembering, its echo setting up camp in the quotidian, how the newest holy moments became visceral by stale minutiae.
SORRY in the TWELFTH HOUSE
It will disappear like fire & warmth & talking about it with strangers gathered & the cool drink of the energy happening between two feelings spoken aloud when your strangers are a new shape of idiosyncratic & help you evaporate your certain regrets. It will sound like what you remember laughing felt like and you will wake up again and again and there you go again talking about eternity like it’s never going to stop.
MOVING FORWARD SQUARE MOON
There will be a magnificence in that generous nothing vaulting around you when you keep the candle lit. If you don’t choose forward, looking backwards will be a scalpel poking holes in the sky. A desperate idea will hide in your constellation. Astrologically speaking, we hold up the moon like a mirror, waiting for our own turn to be orbited. It is better to admit your shit sucks sometimes than blame it on anything else in retrograde.
originally published in POPLORISH